Ever since Ariel was born we’ve always held her while she slept and she wold sleep on our chests!
She wouldn’t sit in a swing or a bouncer at all!
Welllllll the past week we’ve been putting her in her bouncer and she is staying in there longer and longer! AND! ANNNNNNND! We’ve been laying her down on the couch(with us sitting next to her of course) while she sleeps and she has been sleeping there, this morning she laid there for an hour all by herself!
I’m so proud of her! Soon she’ll be able to lay all by herself in her cradle and sleep! :D :D
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
My niece when she was dragging me away in Wal Mart.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
I’m a mixture of both i feel, once you get to know me i am pretty outgoing, but if i am in a new place i am shy.
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
My SO, i look forward to seeing him everyday.
4. Are you easy to get along with?
I feel i am. I mean i am kind of cunt, but whatever.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
I think he would.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Weirdos, i am attracted to a variety of people honestly. I usually fall for the funny ones, if you can make me cry from laughing so hard then you have my heart.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
I want to see something, Reblog if you’re older than 13 and younger than 25.
Ariel on the left, and her cousin Colton on the right. They are definitely related. <3
Just a personal rant. Scroll on.
I keep telling myself that i never want to get married, and it will never last so what’s even the point.
But it’s a lie, i want to get married so bad, i want to have your last name, and be with you forever. I’m just scared that it won’t last, and i’ll end up like my mother.
You keep telling me to wait and see what happens, or to just let life happen, but i can’t, i can’t just sit here and wait for you to decide if you want me or her, you can’t have both. Eventually i need to move on and start my life. I deserve to be happy and i deserve to have someone love me and only me not me and another girl.
And if we didn’t have a daughter together i’d wait, but we do have a child together and you need to decide for her sake, she needs a full time daddy, not one that comes over once a day for a little bit of time.
I hate myself for loving you as much as i do. You hurt me so bad that i don’t know how long it’s going to take me to be okay again. I should hate you, i should never want anything to do with you again, but nope silly me i still love you and i still want to be with you knowing that you could hurt me again, hell you probably will hurt me again and i’ll get broken all over again.
I cry every single night because of you, and i am trying so hard to be this good mom for Ariel, but it’s hard when you feel so dead and broken inside. You can never fix me by telling me sorry as much as you have, you have to prove it to me, and you aren’t. Every day that passes i get more and more broken, and honestly the only thing getting me together and keeping me from hurting myself is Ariel.
While i was pregnant you saved my life you really did, but then you broke me again and how on earth can i ever trust you, but i love you so much it hurts.